Anyone out there?
We would like to say we are sorry these past few months. Or maybe year. We realize just how much we fail in communicating as much as we hoped we could or as well and as deeply as we could with you, our family and friends back home.
I'm sorry to my family for not skyping as much as we wish. And even for sleeping in sometimes on Saturday mornings when instead we could be chatting. I'm sorry for just blaming busyness. I'm sorry sometimes I run away from the task of balancing and organizing these 2 worlds instead of facing it head on and trusting the Lord to give me the strength and energy to do it.
I'm sorry to my friends back home whom I have drafts in my email boxes (embarrassingly) from over a year ago. Ugh... it is so hard to take the time to write those emails I want to write most because my heart wants to pour out all over them and instead I fail to write them or complete them at all. :( It still breaks my heart. There's so much I've wanted to reply to. Thank you for your unconditional love, understanding and friendship. I'm sorry to my other friends who are also having busy lives but that I wish I had the time to pursue. I know relationships will grow and chance but it always aches me to be pulling apart just because distance keeps us apart. Oh, communication struggles and challenges even in this day and age.
I'm sorry to our Grace family and generous gracious loving partners that our updates to you are late. We toil over writing these stories to show you firsthand (as close as possible) what our great amazing God is doing in and through our lives here. But then we get signed off the internet, our internet stops working, or I end up yelling at the computer because when we are finally ready to send out the letters won't upload into my emailing service or the pictures get stuck uploading! Oh and we've wanted to make videos to send to you all but it is harder than it seems to take the time to get ready to record ourselves to show you our love and gratitude. So instead, we fail.
We feel guilty and wanted to get that off our chests because we love you. We need your grace. We're sorry. Will you forgive us? Lately, we really have just been clinging to God's grace to balance and do life. It seems the only thing we can do right these days is invest deeply in the people right in front of us. And even that is wiping us out. Will you pray for us? Lately, I have even felt pursuing God first and foremost with all my heart, mind and strength is my greatest failure.
Thankfully though, you are still there and we are still here. And Christ is at the center of our relationship. Recently we heard a sermon from Francis Chan where he said, "Nothing makes sense outside the grace of God." And oh, how we totally completely agree with that.
So, here we are. Sitting in His grace. Knowing His love doesn't change for us. And knowing our love is growing stronger for you all as we yearn to be together face to face yet embrace the being here. Knowing God is growing us each day in Him as we seek Him however miserably that could be somedays. Knowing our brokenness and our failures don't define us.
Thank you for giving us grace and loving us. Thank you Lord for your grace upon grace.
We love you.
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