At the same time the turn of the seasons and the sign that winter is coming means time is flying. And it always feels like that now. Maybe because I'm older now? (Just celebrated the big 2-7! And Vera is almost 4 months old! eek!!!!) But even though the days sometimes feel slow... overall the days go by before I know it. There aren't enough hours in a day to do all that is on my to-do list. Yet, before the ends of the days, I'm suddenly exhausted and want them to end so I can rest up for the next one. Ha. So human of me... not to be satisfied with anything. Whether it's the seasons changing or the length of a day. I also want Vera to grow and learn to walk and talk and play with me. But at the same time, I don't want her to grow and not be this tiny little baby anymore...
Anyways, Fall is always. so. busy. I can never tell if that's good for my heart or not. But it does force me to slow down or else I can't keep up. So today, my beautiful little ball of cuteness is NAPPING! YAY! I tried to do cry-it-out... been trying for a few weeks now... but it hardly seems to work with me. It might be because I hate making her happy --> sad... even though I know it's good for her and will help her overall. It's more heartbreaking than I thought. (I thought it would be easy because her cries make me so tired. It's hard to keep a little baby who doesn't know what she wants happy.) Days like today, she makes it easy though and just falls asleep after nursing her. I like that. :)
So because the seasons are flying by, the days go fast, baby Vera is finally napping and my to-do list only gets longer and longer... it's time for Vera's newborn photos! Oh yeah- also because my computer isn't working right these days and I always lose my photos collection and I don't want to lose these so I better get some of them up!
I love my little cutie. I love her more and more each and everyday. She pretends to be calm in front of others. That's what we like to say. Because it's just amazing how much we hear and see her cry but often she doesn't do that out in public. Well, sometimes she does. But we hardly see her calm side when it's just us 3 or her and I at home.
It makes me think of how I heard, "This is the easy time", when she was just a newborn. But little Vera, she's not a newborn anymore! She's more than doubled in size and weight.
She's grown in cuteness too. Hair also. (That's always the most noticeable to everyone.)
I took these newborn photos myself. Why? I was in HORRIBLE pain during my recovery after giving birth. (Note: add write birth story to to-blog list before I forget all the details I want to remember!)
My pain put me on couch/bed rest. And because Vera came earlier than expected at 38 weeks and 1 day I didn't have time to arrange newborn photos. Plus, I hardly wanted to be around people at that time. And we live in my parent's basement so doing photos at home with someone coming over probably wouldn't have worked so well. Lighting was horrible so I eventually made most of them black and white. I did what I could. FIGURES, I can't get the black and white photos and many more of the other photos from my dying computer onto my current computer. But one day I'll hopefully get them and share more fun photos of baby Vera.
Also! I'm thankful to have a few amazing photographer friends, none that are close to me. But these friends like Ica and Debbie have blessed my family so much in photos. And from that, I've wanted to grow my photography hobby and be able to bless others in some way too.
So, these are not professional in any way. But experimental. And so special. :)
I'll upload more to come from this little shoot one day...
But for now, baby is up...
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